But, I can change. I can blink. I can alter the pathways and the structure, release the compulsions. I’ve done it before, and I’ll do it again.
Distraction, Part 1
This buzzing, this distracted state, the inability to focus – I’m no good to anyone…and I can’t help thinking how far back this goes, all the way to high school chemistry class and the things you taught me under that fume hood.
The mistake I keep making
The mistake he keeps making, over and over again: assuming that other people are just like him (with tragic, tragic, interesting, tragic) results.
None of this matters
None of this matters, you love writing, the rest is just noise.
Drug resistant gonorrhea
At lunch T tells me about the lab results he is seeing for drug-resistant gonorrhoea. There is a mystery, a sharp decline in 2011, either a lab error or something dramatic is happening. I imagine colonies of bacteria swimming around in a dish…T working late at night, stunned scientists and fame.
That’s interesting said nobody
[11:08] “That’s very interesting” said nobody.: how’s things [11:08] mb: things are okay! [11:08] mb: we’re officially in panic mode over here [11:08] mb: it’s rad
Computer Guy
The computer guy sits in the corner of the table ignoring the meeting and hammering loudly at the keys of his laptop.
Excited
Excited about my new place I have an awkward encounter in the stairwell with your landlady. Later the Russian texts me: “I’m terrible hungry, let’s meet at the eating place.”
Thoughts like wild creatures, part 2
…the failure to live artfully comes the next day…but, here’s an update: I am excited, I am in love with the world.
Thoughts like wild creatures, part 1
My head buzzing…my heart beating…breaths slipping in and out…I stumble home with thoughts like wild creatures…